in other words, i'm going to talk about life outside of the coffee shop.
i love it when i turn on pandora and the exact song that i've been rolling around in my head, fitting my mood perfectly comes out the speakers. it's like God gave me the song...just for me.
today, in two different conversations i came to think quite a bit about my life, mostly my family life, 7 years ago. it's a weird experience talking about my middle school years-it feels so far ago. it feels like it wasn't me. every single person in my family has gone through an incredibly transformative time since then, and are totally different people today: beautiful people.
maybe because we didn't live with my parents till we were teenagers, we all just really started growing up in the past 7 years.
my parents too, i think.
my father 7 years ago was not who he is today.
he is meek, gentle, silly and expressive. it is an honor to know him as intimately as i do
my mother 7 years ago was not who she is today.
she is joyful, purposeful, goofy, and relaxed. she is an example of wisdom.
my oldest sister is nothing she was 7 years ago
she is apologetic, peaceful, mothering and beautiful. i respect her decisions.
my middle sister is nothing she was 7 years ago
she is spontaneous, independent and happy: she shines.
i am not was i was 7 years ago
i pursue my father's communion, i seek my mother's wisdom, i desire my sister's approval, i cherish my sister's opinion.
maybe this is who we always were meant to be, who we were created to be. it just took growing up to discover. it took moving away to learn to be together.
it took the loss of a brother, the gaining of two new siblings.
it took the distance between colorado, new york, north carolina.
mountains city farm
in spite of me God has done this.
"but if i say 'i will not mention Him,
or speak any more in His name'
His word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
i am weary of holding it in.
indeed,
i cannot"
It's nice to read how you see each of us growing, finding more authentic transformation, and connecting more deeply in these last 7 years. Fathers, mothers, and daughters need the engaging touch of the Lord and the embracing, joyful acceptance of each other. I love you very much and affirm your growing writing skills. Love Dad
ReplyDeleteSarah I cherish you as a friend so much you will probably never really know how much , but I want to keep reminding you regardless!
ReplyDeleteIt's funny i have a livejournal ( sort of a blog thing) and i would write and not really care waht people thought,, now since you and rolands roomate read my blog or foolllow it and rolands bro's gf, i feel like i have to spell good and stuff hahaah
anyway love you
You should write beautifully about me sometime...haha Im only kidding buddy.
ReplyDeleteIt's nice to read what you write. And not only because I love you and you are like, my best friend. But because you are good at it and I can understand you. I'm in love with the way you see things. It's what makes me want to spend the rest of my life with you.
PS
I had to start a blog so I could comment on here. hahaha
:D
I miss you.