my dilemma

it's only day 3 and i already have a dilemma.

you see, my objective was to bring you stories-unbiased insight into the life behind the counter.

but i discovered i can't do that.

every day i see issues i want to address-issues i have strong opinions about.

i want you to feel safe-i want you to trust me.

but at the same time, i want this to be a wild ride.

now there is nothing in me that desires to speak badly about any one of my customers.

come to think of it, i've discovered another dilemma.

i'm the last person on earch who actually desires to hurt someone.

but i'm also the past person who wants to sugar-coat things, for the sake of "correctness".

i love ruthless truth. i just have a hard time getting along with her myself when she's being shown me.

for all my desires of truth, i'm the most hyper-sensative person i know. i contradict myself.

we sure were created interestingly weren't we? :)

so how do i tell you about the mother who is a slave to her own children's desires, without wounding her?

while they (9 and 5) each get to gargantuan treats and smoothies, she nearly forgets to order for herself.

i can tell she's tired of them expecting such treatment, yet too tired to fight them.

i hope i can treat her well, well enough that she feels special.

i hope she is reminded that she is a beautiful woman, putting others first, forgetting herself.

i hope i helped her see this.

O that her children would learn it well, would value it.

but did i (value it) at 9?

Maybe life is just that: doing things and then later having the opportunity to applogize.

Maybe that's more meaningful than doing it right the first time.

p.s. thank you Customer. Because today you trusted me. and that made my day